Enshrouded By Fear at 8:50 PM

Initially i didnt have to go to school today cause My relationship module is only on monday. Unfortunately, cause of wonderful training, i had to rush to school at 8.30am.
We were quite unproductive today, did some stock keeping then climb twice.
Though it was only 2 climbs, 1 was the most scary one.
I am abit scared of lead climbing.
It isnt the normal climbing where by there is a rope connected from the belayer to the top and to u. Its not attached to the top.
When my teacher told me to lead climb, My heart suddenly skipped a beat.
Sweat rushed to my pores and "poured' out. haha abit exaggerating, but u get what i mean right? im scared.
When i started climbing, my leg shivered and shook. My grip tighten on every tile i touch as i tried my best to ascend the wall, wasting and draining away my strength bit by bit.
I only climb 3-4 panels before letting go. What a loser i am. HAIS. Sorry, but i am quite a low confidence and low esteem person, so i tend to look at the negative side. But i am positive at times too (:

Went for lunch with a group of friends then went back to school to go to the gym with jui ping and mahbod. But teachers had a meeting, so we can't use it. End up slacking at the boulder wall for awhile before heading home.

watching drama now. see ya ;D


i am sorry if we can't go back to the old days. its my retribution, my downfall.